Monday, June 28, 2010
Now I am wondering how long we are going to do feedings every two hours. As grateful as I am that everything is going so well it is hard having your life run on a two hour schedule, and really since it takes a half hour to feed it is more like an hour and a half schedule. I know that eventually he will go longer between feedings as his stomach gets bigger. Since we are home and I don't really have that much to do it isn't a big deal to feed him that frequently but it does make going out and doing anything pretty hard. I have not actually feed Garrett in public yet and while it makes me nervous I know that I am going to just have to buck up and do it at some point. That point will definitely be this weekend when Brian's sister and her family come out. We have a lot planned, and most of it does not include sitting around the house.
I bought a pump hoping to get enough milk stored up that I could have at least a little for when we are out and about and just do the feedings by bottle but pumping has been harder than I thought it would be. The first day that I pumped I tried it a couple of times after feedings or when he only ate off of one side. That night he was fussy and wouldn't let us put him down pretty much from 7pm to 1 pm the next day. He was asking to eat most of the time as well. I think that he was hungry because I had pumped a lot of his feedings and my supply couldn't keep up. To top it off I really only got like an ounce and a half total that day. So I have been trying not to pump as much. In three days I have about 2 and a half maybe three ounces. That is discouraging. I know that all I can do though is keep at it and hope that it picks up.
I am also nervous to give him a bottle at this point. I don't want him to realize that the bottle is easier than nursing and start to refuse to nurse. I also don't want to hurt my milk supply by feeding him from a bottle instead of nursing or pumping.
I guess we will see how this weekend goes. I will probably throw a bottle and that extra milk that I have in the diaper bag when we go out and just see how it goes. I may use it and I may not. I am guessing not and all in all even though the freedom would be nice I am not sure that I am ready for him to have a bottle yet and risk messing up everything especially since it is going so well.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
This kid is to smart...or something. He has already figured out that it is better to be held while sleeping than to sleep on your own in the Pack N Play. This means that someone is never sleeping or is at the least is dozing with him in the glider (thank god we spent money on a nice used rocker!) I know he is little and I know it will get better.
I think that the problem might stem from him being held all day long while Grandma was here. I told Brian today that we HAVE to start putting him down every time he sleeps (even though it is so tempting to hold him and I think that in general you can't really snuggle a newborn to much) because I just don't know how else to get him used to sleeping on his own. Putting him down in the Pack N Play on his own and having him wake up 10 minutes later is a lot less frustrating during the day than for the 5th time during the night.
Of course he sleeps pretty good in our bed, but I am just not comfortable co-sleeping. Our bed has a down mattress pad and is all squishy and soft. I am terrified of one of us rolling on him. And I also think that the bed is mine and Brian's and needs to stay that way for intimacy and all that good stuff to keep our marriage healthy.
So for now we keep on trying and keep on getting very little sleep. Tonight we got three hours in a row, which felt like a stinking vacation, and I actually woke up before him! I know he is little and it will get better (as I chant this and rock back and forth like a crazy person!)
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Today on your one week birthday we took you in to get circumcised, fun right? While I know you won't remember it, I am having a hard time seeing you in pain. I think mommy cried as much as you did the first couple of diaper changes, but you seem to be bouncing back just fine.
You are such a handsome little man. While I can't wait for you to get older so we can experience a million memories together, I also want to hold on to you forever while you are so tiny and new (minus the sleep deprivation!) Your daddy and I can't wait to see what a life with you will bring us.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
- Garrett Richard Lamon Nickolay was born at 10:40am on June 10th. He weighed 5lbs 11oz and was almost 19 inches long.
- My labor lasted about 18 hours and we spent a little over 12 of them at the hospital.
- Labor was and wasn't the most painful experience of my life. It was awful and then again, it wasn't that bad. I can't explain it. Pushing...that was the hardest thing I have ever done. I think that it is as hard mentally as it is physically.
- Listening to my husband's voice coach me and get more and more excited as I pushed and got closer to getting Garrett out was one of the only things that got me through it.
- It is true...they come out and you love them with everything that you have in you.
- He is the most intimidating person I have ever meet. We are in charge of making sure he is happy, healthy and a good person. OMG, I can't believe they let us leave the hospital with him!
- I am not sure how all my bits "down there" are ever going to go back to normal. It is scary and it hurts me!
- He is SO tiny and has a full head of hair that is brown and blond, I love him even more for it.
- His days and nights seem mixed up. The nights are incredibility hard, especially when you are already sleep deprived. There are times I feel like I would literally pay a million dollars for four (or even three) straight hours of sleep!
- Watching my husband turn into a dad is THE best thing ever. Ever time he kisses Garrett or leans over him and says how perfect he is, my heart melts!
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
After a walk and another nap, I finally decided their was no reason to feel so cranky and depressed about it (I think that the extra sleep might have helped the attitude as well.) So I baked a cake and enjoyed my "sick" day at home with Brian. 36 hours later I am still having contractions on a pretty regular basis but nothing that is time able or that I can't do normal activities through. I figure at this point at least SOMETHING is happening and hopefully at some point active labor will just kind of kick in. I think I would be more disappointed if things just stopped and nothing was going on. It is definitely a good reminder that you can't control what happens with your body, everyone is different (there is no "normal"), and that things are easier if you just go along with the flow.
Friday, June 4, 2010
Total weight gain: More :(
Maternity Clothes? I don't want to wear clothes anymore, they are uncomfortable!
Sleep: Still good, besides the peeing!
Food Craving: Nothing really
Movement: He is pushing out and stretching a lot. I think that he needs to come out now.
Gender: Little Man!
Labor Signs: Doctor says I am progressing right along. Baby dropped another inch or so, I am dilated a little bit more, and all that good stuff. I am getting Braxton Hicks pretty much every time I stand up or twist and even had a couple of hours of false labor on Tuesday night.
Belly button in or out: In
What I miss: Not feeling swollen from head to toe.
What I am looking forward to: Not feeling swollen from head to toe! Being done!
Milestones: False labor...I guess :)