Tuesday, May 25, 2010

A Big Sigh...

I am having one of those days. I came home from our doctor's appointment today and went back to bed. I am ready for him to be here. Mostly mentally, physically I still feel great.

My grandparents have had their house in LA on the market for the past couple of months. The house that we always visited and that I thought they would never leave. The plan has tentatively been for my mom and I to drive down to LA sometime in July or August (with Garrett of course) and pickup some furniture and things that they are getting rid of during the down sizing. Well, they sold the house and my mom and stepdad are heading down to LA the last week of June. I want to go, so bad! I want to see the house one last time, I want to road trip with my parents and I want my family and grandparents to meet Garrett.

So now of course I want him to come NOW, so that we have a couple of weeks under our belts and we can go with my parents to California. If he isn't here by the end of next week then we obviously won't go. I feel like it is so selfish and of course I want him to come when he is ready but the thought of missing the trip makes me so sad and cranky and down.

I told Brian today that I just need to accept the fact that I can't do anything about when Garrett is going to come and I should just accept the fact that we are not going to be able to go to California at the end of the month. Then I can just move on and enjoy the last couple of weeks of this pregnancy. It is hard though (and if I am honest I think I am being over emotional about the whole thing, I will blame it on hormones!) I guess it is a good lesson or reminder on how much things change after you have a baby. No more just picking up and going and things are really controlled by their schedule!

1 comment:

Amy said...

Its true to a certain extent - baby schedule controls yours... a New Years Eve a couple years ago was our one of a VERY few nights out to look forward to with friends we get to see so rarely - kids were running fevers that day & we ended up at the hopsital on New Years Eve to see who needed medicine & how much... we didn't end up going out on our very anticipated night out - There have been plenty of fun New Years Eves since then. Just think some day you'll be able to take Garrett and show him the world while visiting your family in wonderful new places! He'll be here sooner than later - REST UP MAMA!!!!!!!!!!!! ;)
(4th of July doesn't seem that it'll come fast enough either!)